Plead My Cause

Oh hear, I continue to plead my cause
Oh tears, how long will I be in this chaos?
this deep black hole feeds my soul
In the wilderness I’ve been belaboured

How could I bear this crown full of thorns?
I question situations but it is still you I follow
I do shrink back at times but I press on
In the wilderness I’ve been belaboured

I try to keep oneself unstained from this world
In this purification I plead my cause once more
Even when I lose I know all things will unfold
In the wilderness I’ve been belaboured

As the devil keeps bombarding my soul
I grew weary, I know God will plead my cause
to plead my cause once more, once and for all
In the wilderness I have found a saviour

Oh dearest, continue to rise as I fall
lean on the fullness of the glory of the Lord
you will go farther along with compassion
I will be with you in the inferno of firestorm

As I fall, I will rise my kingdom shall be known
Continue to write for this hope is shown
Even when there is no reason to hope
Continue to hope for all things will unfold

~M. Salonga

I Would Be With You Again

I long for the day I would be with you again
though Im in the midst of the war I will be confident
You’ve told me you’ll be coming back so I wait
It is your will to let me wait and rest in your embrace
For I only trust in your heart and nothing else

I know everything will be okay for you are sovereign
there are times i cannot comprehend your ways
but when you intervene I am only amazed
the understanding I have gain change me everyday
even though you are away, your love is evident

Oh gone are the days of my former circumstances
where I lay in my bed and weep bitter prayers
for whatever is to come has already been named
for in my heart you have written your promises
You have filled my existence with such effervescence

Even when you are far away, my love for you grows stronger
Our distant love is an unbreakable kind and it’s the greatest
From three days of separation and on the third day to forever
How incredible, while away, in my toughest struggle, in battle
I still hope for the day I would be with you again

 

~ M. Salonga

Battling against homesickness…

Marianne’s Journal Entry #1

Hey yo! How are you and you and you?,

WEDNESDAY, AUSTRALIA – One night, I dreamt of a beautiful dinner date but was suddenly interrupted when I woke up. I saw a beautiful banqueting hall with a specific table and chair just for me and my date. I felt at peace, calm, only thinking of pure and noble love for my date (I somehow felt like I was in my spirit), then my date told me “My beloved, here’s the banquet hall leading to our table for my banner over you is love” (Song of Solomon 2:3-4) and I realise that it wasn’t just a date, it was a wedding and my groom was Jesus. As I was walking the halls leading to our table and chairs. I just woke up. It was interrupted. I did not have the chance to sit, or the chance to see Jesus, or the chance to have a conversation with Jesus. As I woke up, I instantly started thinking about Facebook, Instagram, things to do for the day; To be honest, waking up like that sucks, it was frustrating. I realise how it made me so aware how different the spirit is to my flesh (Galatians 5:17). But, I was also grateful because that was a beautiful vision and radical encounter I had with Jesus.

After a few days, I have felt a huge homesickness and had an urge to go back to the motherland but when I have searched my feelings I didn’t exactly want to go back. It kept me up all night wondering why do I feel so lonely despite my good relationship with my spiritual family here in Australia. I examined deeper, I did some comparisons by weighing the pros and cons, and I have come to the discovery I want to truly go home because I do not belong in this world anymore, I felt like an exile. I couldn’t figure why so I had a conversation with my Mom, who is my mentor, my coach, and of course my role model.

Before talking to my mom, I was stuck for a while feeling lonely. I asked friends what could this be, they told me to pray but in reality I was waiting for answers because I do pray for the struggle I was having; every time I am at my worst I cling to Jesus even more. I do my devotions everyday, I continually go to church every Sunday, I continually pray, I continually never give up on hearing and hearing the word, and interact godly activities . But finally, I opened up to my mom with the experience I was having she finally gave the answer I was looking for. She told me the reason why I was feeling homesick and lonely – It is because, I have finally deprived and emptied my flesh of ungodly activities which my flesh misses and the feelings I am feeling is the perfect reaction for my willingness for obedience for the flesh follows its own while the spirit honours and follows the will of God. She told me how I do not belong to this world anymore (John 15:19) and how I belong to another world which is the kingdom of God that can’t be found in the current world I am in but only through Jesus. I realise it’s the cares of this world that weighs me down and choke me to confusion (Matthew 13:22). So I am grateful for my mom who exposed me this.

Because of that Revelation, I reflected back on the vision God has given me, I realise how much I miss that dream but I also long for the day of His coming back. The wedding He had for me is also for every follower of Jesus. So I would want to share this verse:

Let us rejoice and exult
    and give him the glory,
for the marriage of the Lamb has come,
    and his Bride has made herself ready (Revelation 19:7)

I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. (Revelation 21:2)

10 And while they were going to buy, the bridegroom came, and those who were ready went in with him to the marriage feast, and the door was shut. (Matthew 25:10)

I have learnt that no matter where I go in this world there will always be an emphatic homesickness in me since I had the essence of what its like to be with Jesus. But at the same time, I am grateful for this because without this weakness I wouldn’t be able to understand. I have the similarity with Paul’s experience.

even though I have received such wonderful revelations from God. So to keep me from becoming proud, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger from Satan to torment me and keep me from becoming proud.

Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. (2 Corinthians 12:7-9)

Finally, while I am still alive I will continue to live in accordance to following the will of the Lord. For I long for the day of His coming as he promised. For even though I am weak He watches over me and takes care of me. My true home is not of this world. Also, I do not fear for the days to come because God is faithful.

Thus says the Lord of hosts, the God of Israel, to all the exiles whom I have sent into exile from Jerusalem to Babylon: Build houses and live in them; plant gardens and eat their produce. Take wives and have sons and daughters; take wives for your sons, and give your daughters in marriage, that they may bear sons and daughters; multiply there, and do not decrease. But seek the welfare of the city where I have sent you into exile, and pray to the Lord on its behalf, for in its welfare you will find your welfare. (Jeremiah 29:4-7)

10 “For thus says the Lord: When seventy years are completed for Babylon, I will visit you, and I will fulfill to you my promise and bring you back to this place. 11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare[b] and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. 13 You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all the nations and all the places where I have driven you, declares the Lord, and I will bring you back to the place from which I sent you into exile. (Jeremiah 29:10-14)

Therefore, I do not belong to this world and I don’t have to fight homesickness because it’s normal. In fact, I am embracing it as it reminds me of whom I truly belong to. Now, I would no longer be burdened for it is carried by Jesus and the weight of cynicism has been laid aside. I am now free of this world.

So the world has lost it’s grip on me ~ Tenth Avenue North

Seeking Heart

Her heart asks, she asks questions that seem silly to us
Who is us? us are the wise, the smart, the chosen ones.
I was told to not hinder the Children to Him and His heart
So here I am, being asked of who was, is, and is to come

Continue to seek Him my child, continue your way to the light
Who is the light? the light is seen through Heaven’s eyes
Do not run, do not hide, for unconditional is His love
So here I am, as her heart asks who was, is, and is to come

Her heart do not understand, but she continue to ask
Who is the word? The Word is life and of eternal one
Do not lose heart, for His burden is light, ask and find
So here I am, listens to asking of who was, is, and is to come

Her heart finally understands, she gain insight and life
What is life? Life is not of this world but of glorious one
When the day comes, everything you see will be of renewal
So here I am, patiently, we wait of who was, is, and is to come

~ M. Salonga

In the throne room with him

In wonder, for what do I have in me
what are the promises I treasure and keep
In wonder, how do one receive salvation?
what do I have to deserve the throne?

The promises i received i kept it within
embedded in my heart forever i will sing
I was lured to deception and temptation
but I have built my foundation from stone

When storms come, I stood still
When the consuming fire burns, Im in peace
When the enemies attack, I have salvation
Behold, know the word that I praise, I only rejoice

I am just a mere flesh with a willing spirit
my only desire is to be forever with Him
I think of His steadfast love with adoration
I think of the day He comes with a sword

It might seem dim but He’s renewing everything
Finally, I’ll be in the throne room with him
I’ll keep singing beautiful songs
Forever, I’ll lean on Him all day long

The promises i received i kept it within
embedded in my heart forever i will sing
I think of His steadfast love with adoration
I think of the day He comes with a sword

It might seem dim but He’s renewing everything
Finally, I’ll be in the throne room with him
I’ll keep singing beautiful songs
Forever, I’ll lean on Him all day long

~M.Salonga

Relentless Woman

This is a woman i want to be
a relentless one
She knows what her identity is
in the eyes of God

No one gives her insecurity
For she never crash
In the past, she failed miserably
Now, she’s towards God

Relentless woman only flourish
She knows what’s true love
She knows it’s not about the physique
but clinging to God 

At night, she speaks through her tears and grieve
From mourning, joy comes
Her identity’s securely sealed
For she pursue God

This is a woman i want to be
a relentless one
She knows what her identity is
in the eyes of God

To the relentless woman i will be
For I pursue God
I can only say nothing but cheers
For I see the light

~M.Salonga

#RelentlessWoman

Be Patient

When I look at my past
all I can see is wrath
all I can see is dark
Oh for who’s fault but mine?

I write my heartaches
and burst out my anger
the dangers of rage
Oh when will I be patient?

When I look at me now
my heart is still undone
Oh when will i run back
like the prodigal son?

Silent at this moment
A whisper from heaven came
Emmanuel, Emmanuel
In your affliction, be patient

I choose the time
Rush of wind from above
It is I, It is I
The one and only Alpha

Heart starts to beat louder
From the heavens,
A gushing flame of fire
Behold, reap the harvest

I choose the time
Rush of wind from above
It is I, It is I
The one and only Alpha

Stand firm on your faith
Know that I am able
In your life, it will be evident
the prophecy, always remember

I choose the time
Rush of wind from above
It is I, It is I
The one and only Alpha

In your affliction, be patient
In your test, be patient
In your challenges, be patient
But in everything, pray

~ M. Salonga

Together Forever

Your love overtakes
it feels like heaven

All of my days
your name will be praised

You are my secret place
my safe place

To lean in your chest
Oh this experience

The love in my veins
I cannot contain

Nothing can separate
We’re together forever

From faith to faith
Always growing stronger

In my weakness
You are my help

How could I forget?
When you saved the day

What can I say?
I am speechless

For your love overtakes
it feels like heaven

All of my days
your name will be praised

You are my secret place
my safe place

To lean in your chest
Oh this experience

The love in my veins
I cannot contain

Nothing can separate
We’re together forever

~M. Salonga

Until only you are seen

Have been humbled for a while
Seen my own iniquities
But here I am still alive
With such wanting and longing

To be deeply in love
Until only you are seen
have our lives intertwined
To keep my heart steady

Wandering in the oceans
Persevering and waiting
I don’t understand it now
but soon, it will be revealed

Have some patient little one
as you have said in my sleep
For you know Im still undone
So I trust your artistry

The slow moving of the sun
Makes me thirsty, Makes me seek
Process me in the desert land
Until only you are seen

To my dearest one above
In the process of waiting
Let it all fade away & be gone
Until only you are seen

~M. Salonga

Anchored

I have been tossed by the waves of emotions to and fro
I was lost in the sea of confusions and the unknown
In the life of fear, I have made horrible decisions
The tears that was shed, grieved for the sake of my own soul

Hear my mourning for I need a champion out of Sodom
Blinded by my own depression hoping for tomorrow
I offer this empty life for im nothing and alone
Going back to the source of salvation and redemption

In my anguish and cries, the heavens responded a roar
the champion of heavens rescued me out in the lowest point
From resuscitation to redemption, one, two, three, four
A new heart started beating, A new heart has been bestowed

As I get up on my feet, I did blow the loudest horn
I could see it coming down, my own walls of Jericho
All I could see, unending opportunities and hope
To my champion, I will remain and strongly anchored

For my champion listened and responded with action
For he loved me in my darkest and lowest and gave his all
For he swam down the confusions and showed his favour
To my champion, I will remain and strongly anchored

 

~ M. Salonga

#NeverLettingGoNoMatterWhat

When we finally walk away

Inhale Exhale, Inhale Exhale
Look at him one last time
begging a glimpse of his face
but my mind stood the ground

letting go and walking away
reminding myself never again
from all the pain I‘ve felt
craving to find my soul again

For chances were given
Convincing myself to stay
trying to fix whats already broken
taken for granted once again

The power of courage took over
has made me stronger than ever
Saving myself from heartbreak
To finally give my heart a break

~M. Salonga

Life is an Ongoing Recovery

Wanting our hearts to heal
To live a life of milk and honey
But this life’s full of shit
A place where rest is a sin

Life’s an ongoing recovery
Face all kinds of pain everyday
To cry, pray, and think
laying down in the bed broken

Shouting to the heavens
with so much trust and faith
To let the winter end
and may summer rise again

Time will tell us when
the pain would go far away
A notebook and pen
A companion to depend for days

To be angry or to be happy
feelings in a roller coaster ride
This is truly damaging
for our little fragile minds

Wanting our hearts to heal
To live a life of milk and honey
But this life’s full of shit
A place where rest is a sin

Life’s an ongoing recovery
Face all kinds of pain everyday
To cry, pray, and think
laying down in the bed broken

Shouting to the heavens
with so much trust and faith
To let the winter end
and may summer rise again

~M. Salonga

Loving someone broken

We fall in love with vulnerability
Not aware that it can painfully kill
We see the good but afraid to see it all
so when we jump we lost it all

Loving someone broken is truly a challenge
for we never know what might happen
ending up both confused and depressed
Not knowing leads to both wreckage

Many issues are tackled and confronted
Solving problems by flowers
Many issues came back over and over again
Discovering flowers aren’t the answer

A shattered glass wounds the fixer
accidentally cutting himself
Loving someone broken
Loving by carrying the burdens

We all fall in love with vulnerability
Not aware it can painfully kill
We know how this story ends
both lead to their death

~M. Salonga

Memorable Hong Kong

You were so memorable Hong Kong
You somehow help me moved on
to the things I can’t let go of
I have traveled to many attractions

I thank, how it somehow moved the pain away
when I booked the tickets right away
with my family who would love me in any way
and who would be there for me anywhere

You were so memorable Hong Kong
I get to see lots & enjoyed the most
I would cherish this amazing joy
even when I am already at home

#DiscoverHongKong