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Friend that Listens

This is for our friend that listens
listens to all the pain and sorrows
Being burnt and hurt in most events
can make a blood to boil

Adorations and exaltation
For their patience is astounding
Realisation and Appreciation
For having them is a gift

A word not even uttered
yet the heart stays overwhelmed
knowing that my voice is heard
Help that gave my heart a rest

Shoutout to our friend that listens
We were unwell and they run and came
We’re grateful for their care and love
They did not know they have saved a life

~Marianne S.

#SaveALife
#Listen
#BeThere

I fell in love with Melbourne

I fell in love with its beautiful streets
and happy with the company I keep
If it weren’t for these peeps
I would face the journey feeling lonely
with such big fears
So for this peeps I love, Cheers 🍻
We did some drinkin
We did some big shoppin
We did some roadtrippin
We did some food explorin
We did some sight seeings
Oh Melbourne, you weren’t in my list
But I can say you’d be truly miss
Took some pics and bought some gifts
You’ll forever stay in my memory ❤️

I Need You Still

On the run feeling numb

For I am losing the sun

Slowly losing my breath

Just trying to do my best

My eyes filled with tears

Self-pity and overthinking

All these demons in my head

Here I am, frightened

Know that I need you still

I try to keep myself still

I hope you remember

the love we spent and dreamt

We used to live for tomorrow

Chasing after our own rainbow

Now we’re just strangers

In a place called nowhere

You have always seen me

You have always loved me

Know that I need you still

I try to keep myself still

Monsters are now my companion

No ones going to catch when I fall

I only see a beautiful dead end

If I live, the only fool is myself

For every memory crushes me

I can only hear broken symphonies

My beating heart hurts like hell

I’m just pining for death, my friend

~ M. Salonga

Write My Cries

I cried one at night

I cried waking up

Praying loud to God

To help me stand up

or just end my life

All i see is black

For there is no love

I could think of mom

my last straw to life

but were miles apart

Alone in the dark

with my thoughts & mind

so i write it up

my way to survive

I am a Christian

might be in the light

but my sight is blind

or mind filled with clouds

Keep moving forward

says my little heart

Just please write it up

a way to survive

says my little heart

~ Marianne Salonga

Words Unspoken

Have you ever wanted to speak your mind?

but you ended up staring in the sky

and lose oneself because words are not found

I could totally understand and relate in some ways

there must be some reason God erased the thoughts in our head

Im hoping God also erased the feelings of depressed

If I look closely and act as a judge

The person who is at fault is just me

The person who is truly blind is me

Every night I fell asleep at 3am

I just try to write my feelings on my bed

black, white, smileys, chocolate, doodles, scribbles

It is a never ending cycle everyday

breakfast, lunch, dinner and it would still be the same

So I just try to write my feelings on my bed

black, smileys, doodles, scribbles, and words unspoken

Rest forever, The End

Trying to reflect,
I looked at myself
I see struggle
I see pain
I just can’t help
but notice darkness
So I remain silent
I want to share
all my secrets
It is twisted
It is from hell
So i just accepted
that the attempt
to share
Won’t just happen
So I observe
So I wait
Pain’s bigger
Struggle’s harder
Im now in chains
I’ve fallen
into the deepest
part of well
I want help
What is sane?
What is the answer?
In my death
would I be replaced?
I guess
I just need rest
to rest forever
the end
I am now
seeing silhouette
and sunset
is this heaven?
Watching the end
of skies and water
I just want to stay
Experience a moment
where darkness
just faded
out of nowhere
Rest forever,
The end

~ M. Salonga

Sinking deep

I am sinking I may have lost my way
My tears have turned into a lake
I am just holding my own breath
I own a mind that tricks and plays
Wondering if when will the race end
I truly have nobody but myself
since people i love are oceans away
I have seen a lot of change
like the seasons, weather, and days
I have also seen things the same
like the red will stay red
Looking at it might seem nonsense
However there’s something in a way
that i could totally relate
My eyes are beginning to water again
lost in my existence I would say
If my love ones are present
they would just snatch me away
and they’ll make sure I’m safe
I might be just over my head
I find it difficult to explain
But I can only express myself
I said I’d make my life better I swear
But here I am all over again
I am sinking deep, I only blame myself
I have chosen my life to go this way
I thought I have found an escape
turned out to be a way for me to hell
I need somebody with saving grace
favour my life with indulgence
For I am sinking deep, I only blame myself

~ M. Salonga

Tears Have Gone By

As the time runs by every night
my tears have already gone by
when the morning comes
and the sun starts to rise
you’ll then see my bright smile

If you understand my heart
I’m an expert in faking smiles
I’m sad most of the time
I’ve been brought down a million times
I’ll always stay fine but tired

Tap my own shoulder say it’s alright
but it is never alright
What an unforgiving life!
Little by little I’m going mad
I just hope to make it out alive

I would love to keep in touch
Maybe someone would listen to my mind
End up all together in the night
Together, we’ll cry out loud
And choose how we would all die

Here I am lying down
Shutting my eyes and heart
Listening to the lies of my mind
Having this mind I would drown
Anyway I just try to die

As the time runs by every night
my tears have already gone by
when the morning comes
and the sun starts to rise
you’ll then see my bright smile

If you understand my heart
I’m an expert in faking smiles
I’m sad most of the time
I’ve been brought down a million times
I’ll always stay fine but tired
    

~ M. Salonga

Beautiful Dream

I just want to fast track everything
where everything is a beautiful dream
I want to see myself flying free
and stop myself from asking and thinking
when will misery stop chasing me?
what if I start singing, dancing, or painting?
would my life be better off with these
I would love to end the following years
that does not look good for me
fast tracking everything where hardships
would probably not be haunting me
Too bad I can only see it by imagining it
I guess I could be more positive and believe
I could probably foresee the possibilities
The problem is wanting it immediately
Welcome to the frustrations of being me
so much to expect and believe
To die is gain indeed but so is living free
Here I am again, contemplating and reflecting
but thats just how it is, so I say so be it
Just let life to keep on shaping me & moulding me
into something precious like the amethyst
I just simply want to reach and achieve
that desire I have in me: beautiful dream

~ M. Salonga

I Am Going To Be Okay

I am going to be okay I say

My heart will beat over again

I can keep it together with all my best

Even when I think of running away

I’ve made mistakes like push people away and going my own way

But I know some still loves me anyway

Like my Father who is in heaven

Like my mother and my true friends

Although I am far away from them

I do cry at night to myself

I can’t help but think of an embrace

An embrace that can express

Expressions of gentleness, kindness

concern, and indulgence

It is not easy to be myself to fight myself

should I still keep my interests existent?

or should I terminate my own existence?

they say it’s a blessing to have a brain

but being a thinker? it just drains me to death

Oh my dearest self, I tell myself

You’re going to be okay

Your heart will beat all over again

because you are a fighter

there’s still a lot to learn and face

a lot to experience, a lot to expect

a lot to appreciate and acknowledge

Just always remember to refresh

Continue to participate and be aware

and discover that kismet can also be kept

as long as love still remains

~ M. Salonga

Sparks Fly

My memory of you is always at night

Where I can see the city lights behind

I remember your funny looking smile

I can see your eyes staring at me

I kind of pretended that I did not see

I just enjoyed feeling like I am in the land of milk and honey

Is it just me? but I have never felt this kind of electricity in my heart, beating.

I am just wondering and believing that the universe made you for me

The joys of dating, keeping memories

keeping feelings, it might be fleeting

But I am truly proud of whatever this moment is…

At least I can say I have experience it

~ M.S

Delete and Reset

I love looking at old photos, I love the memories of it all

It makes me remember the fun, It makes me remember the life

Here I am deleting some of it, I don’t want to dwell in it

I commanded my mind to reset, and to embrace change

It is letting go of the bad and keeping the best

Reseting gives me freedom and I hope it makes sense

Deleting and reseting isn’t a waste, its just a time to reflect

Time to leave it all, Live it on, and believe in more

I love looking at old photos, I love the memories of it all

It makes me remember the fun, It makes me remember the life

Here I am deleting some of it, I don’t want to dwell in it.

~M.S

I Got To Know You

Tell me how to get out of this mess
I’m afraid I would be taken away
I am just asking for help
But no one seems to care

This anxiety is massive
I am lonely and down
So much fears and worries
Show me the way out

But then I got to know you
You made a way to break through
I thought I wasn’t worth being around
but you definitely turned it around

I got to know you
it saved me from my doom
What you have was love
it brought me back to life

I got to know you
when I was still in gloom
the night is gone
and your keeping my heart alive

~M.S