I got to know you

Tell me how to get out of this mess
I’m afraid I would be taken away
I am just asking for help
But no one seems to care

This anxiety is massive
I am lonely and down
So much fears and worries
Show me the way out

But then I got to know you
You made a way to break through
I thought I wasn’t worth being around
but you definitely turned it around

I got to know you
it saved me from my doom
What you have was love
it brought me back to life

I got to know you
when I was still in gloom
the night is gone
and your keeping my heart alive

~M.S

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Turning Depression to Desperation into a Life Back on Track

First things first, I have been thinking of the difference between these two words – depression and desperation. I know that there’s a difference between them, even when some people think they have the same meaning. So I googled what others say about their difference and I found this link – What is the difference between depression and desperation?.

Here are the answers I gathered that I agreed with:

Answers Depressed Desperate
By Malini Rajendra When you’re depressed, you lack in energy and thus you’re fatigued, resulting in some physical ailments like digestive problems, body ache, loss of appetite etc!

 

 

 

But when you’re desperate, you’re loaded with energy to accomplish the task or get the work done. Also you’re prepared to go to any extent, by taking all sorts of risks (which is dangerous too)!

 

 

By Vikas Kanukollu  

 

When you are hit by depression, you shut yourself out from the rest of the world and try to act normal even when you are imploding mentally.

 

When you are desperate, you make sure that the world knows you are feeling depressed.
By Rex Fernando  

 

Depression is an emotional situation where you really don’t want to do anything. You’ll really physically feel HEAVY, and you’d rather continue to lie in bed rather than DO anything.

 

 

Desperation is an emotional situation where you really want to do something. Anything. You’re on tenterhooks to DO something.

 

By Chirag Arora I can’t do this. This is not for me. I will never succeed in this. I should leave this.

 

 

I can do this. I have to do this at any cost. I will surely succeed if I try this. I should keep trying. I will breathe peacefully only after I succeed.

 

Going back to the question, How to turn depression to desperation into a life back on track?

  1. Have faith – Firstly, always believe even there’s no reason to believe. This one is easy to say but it is difficult to establish. It might also sound stupid but it helps depression and having faith is also an act of desperation. Faith is a substance that needs development, it’s not something you can have right away because people always doubt. I started developing faith and letting it grow by practicing on my words which send signals and message to my brain, I always think of lovely things and it really does help.  Imagine the things you desire to happen in your life and you’ll expand your self-awareness and see your potentials; I have learned this from the book of Stephen Covey “7 habits of highly effective people” and I also have learned this from different people in the Bible and on how they grow their faith even when they have big burdens. I love reading books; I also write down stuff because my comprehension can be brittle sometimes and another hobby I love is collecting wisdom and knowledge. According to Stephen Covey, every human has four endowments: self-awareness, conscience, independent will, and creative imagination. Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. Philippians 4:8
  2. I suggest a look on to hygiene –  There are many small ways on helping oneself up but I’ll suggest hygiene because i find this one more doable. Study says that poor hygiene can be a sign of self neglect, this can be true because we sometimes get tired of trying for life and to live. However, a small step on looking into your hygiene should be a mindset of achieving it for yourself and not for others. If you please others, disappointment comes and leads to sadness and leads to extreme isolation. Truth be told, all people have a judgemental attitude because of ignorance but some are understanding because they try to learn everyday. A look into hygiene should be intentional, this is a small step of faith on helping yourself up and a mindset of saying “I love myself”. I wouldn’t force you to do it since I understand the struggle, I have been there. However, I’m gonna be that loving friend to say “Try, because it feels good”. Whenever I clean myself up, I always feel comfortable and good. If you struggle with your personal hygiene, I am here to encourage you that you are not alone and just look into her story: Story of Grace Nonemaker.
  3. I highly suggest Fasting – This is probably my most important suggestion. This one is also a big step of faith. Depression is a state that comes from within us because of our environment, mindset, feelings, insecurities, lack of contentment, fading love, failures, and more. All humans have been depressed but others got stuck and others move forward. Now, I suggest fasting because depression sends bad messages to our whole system until it makes us blind then we fall deeper into the unknown until it will be too difficult to break the chains of being slave to depression. According to Matt Mattson, Chief of Laboratory of Neurosciences at the National Institute on Aging (2014), Fasting does good things to the brain and physical health. Fasting helps reduce inflammation and oxidative stress in organ systems throughout the body. I have put more sources regarding fasting below the references and it is worth checking. I do Christian Fasting – science usually explains fasting as some kind of a dieting method which is not bad but true fasting is also about the mindset and mental health and I believe in order to do that is to have no.1 which is faith. So when I fast, I pray. When I fast, I live a servant lifestyle which is explain in Isaiah 58. Fasting is also my way out to depression and a form of desperation to make important decisions and good choices. Fasting does many good things for my whole being until I realise how to get my life back on track.

To shorten all pointers, turning depression to desperation into a life back on track is to practice on growing your faith by believing on your desires and imagination and to see your potential; To break the chains of being a slave to depression, try to start small with looking onto your hygiene because it is a way of saying “I love myself” and it is more doable. Lastly, a way out of depression is to be desperate on saving oneself by fasting – fasting is a matter faith and to focus deep within and to humble oneself. With faith, small steps of moving forward, an act of fasting to develop focus and think clearly – all of these will result to peace and hope. I testify.

References:

7 Habits of Highly Effective People
Why Fasting Bolsters Brain Power?
Fasting: A Path to Mental and Physical Transcendence
Holy Bible

To the lighthouse

I understand your sorrow
I have been there before
I will be there over and over
Feeling so low
Wanting to die
To dive in the seas
hoping you’ll find bliss
wonderin if you’ll be missed

To lift ones head is courage
A step to destroy rage
An age to never give up
One day you’ll feel high
Just keep looking up
believing the one in the sky
above
Just lift you hands up
Continue to trust
Just keep moving forward
You’ll then see the light
to my lighthouse
He and I will be there
and embrace you with
your new found love

~M. Salonga

You are a different one

You don’t always say a lot
But in you I have found love
My heart is what you have won
You are a different one
Before,
I have fallen for words
I believe in every word
but sooner and later 
they have hurt me with words
You are a different one
After those hurtful words,
I don’t believe in love anymore
I thought they say honest words
Well I was very wrong
But then,
I met you 
a man of little words
You were just full of action
It was okay with you
that I don’t trust you
But now,
I have fallen for you 
My trust for you is beyond
It’s all because you are a different one
You love and show how
You give and teach me how
You understand and tell me how
You like me and tell me why
Tomorrow is another day to fall in love
to let my trust soar high
let your few words and actions
of love pour out
Truly, you are a different one

~M.Salonga

Some people have thought of ending their own lives: have you ever had this thought?

No, I will not abandon you or leave you as orphans in the storm – I will come to you – John 14:18 (NLT)

First things first, I would highly suggest for all of you to bookmark this post or save the link because this post consists activities; The activities suggested are meant to be put to heart and the activities might take days or if you live a busy life, it may take weeks to finish. This post has been in my draft for days; It honestly took me days to gather resources I want to share which are the treasures of my heart ever since, I did make an effort for this one because that’s how much I care for you even if I don’t know you.

Recently, there has been a lot of news regarding the youtube video of Logan Paul regarding what he did on “Aokigahara Forest” also known as the suicide forest. Many people got mad of Logan and bashed him on Twitter because he literally included a dead man in his video; Also, the body wasn’t completely censored, and it still disturbed many people. I personally did not watch it because I was afraid, I literally have not watched any horror films for two years and I always scroll to ignore horror trailers ads in Facebook and Youtube with an increasing panic in my heart because videos these days play automatically XD. I easily get nightmares, okay? I wouldn’t want to die being chased by a demon in my dream.

So here’s the deal for me, while people focused on Logan, my heart felt sympathy and remembered the dead man who killed himself in the forest. That’s why I decided to make this blog post. I want to give an encouragement to people who have lost all hope because I simply care. I want to give you these things I have, but before I share these things to all you, take a little break and do this one activity to open you heart and mind to anything,  to relax and forget the world, . It is hard to share something when a person’s heart is full of worries and doubts. So please go to the quiet place project and relax and even pray for seconds to open your heart. Click -> The Quiet Place Project

Now, I appreciated that you cooperated. At least, my heart is assured that you are ready to receive these things since your mind and heart is open to the possibilities.

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By Himself

Im waiting for you for so long
you say you don’t have any worth
but you are more than gold
you said you are alone
but I am here all along
it’s time for you to move on
just let my love pour
let me in your world
you are tired and worn
rest in my unseen love
our separation won’t stop love
you’re eyes are closed
time to open it now
you don’t get me down
just let me in your world

What I learnt about good and bad relationships?

There are many types of relationships: familial, romantic or intimate, professional, and friendly or brotherly. I learned that any good relationship is important to our lives and bad relationships dries up our lives and cut our lives short. In this post, I would emphasise the pros of having a good relationship more, than the cons of having a bad relationship. Now, why is a good relationship important?

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